Some days...

are harder than others. I don't know what it is about today that has me feeling so out of sorts but, I really am. Maybe it was that damn flu shot I took yesterday. Or maybe it is the fact that as much as I try to resist it and fight it....the reality that Mom is gone is really starting to sneak in and take a firm hold. I admit it, I have worked hard to stay very busy and not allow myself to let any real emotion in and I have little patience and distance myself from people who are emotional right now. I don't want to sound mean or coldhearted. I just don't know if I can get through all the "business" at hand if I let all the emotions creep in and firmly and coldly hit me. Isn't it funny, how even as adults, when things tend to go bad the person we typically look for is our mother? I guess in the grand scheme of life, things aren't really that bad. I have 3 happy and healthy kids that despite my reservations are doing very well in their first year in public school. I have someone who loves me and cares about me very much. I have my health...well okay....I won't go that far...I'm better off than I could be. I still have a good quality of life and am able to function on a pretty high level even if I am exhausted all the time. I have my Layla...what more could I ask for....a unified country and world peace?

So today is just another day to put one foot in front of the other and take life moment by moment and hope that each one will get a little easier and some of the stress in life will just melt away.

Pandora wishing you all happy thoughts.

xoxo