Decisions Decisions

So, it is another new day. I'm not feeling as optimistic about things today. Nothing really new has happened or changed things, it is just another day. I have found myself waffling about things and I decided I needed to sit down and really think about what I want before I act on anything. I know that some of you are really scratching your heads about why I would want to continue to associate with my current work. I've invested so much of myself in that organization it is hard to just walk away knowing they have great potential under the new leadership and with the new projects on the horizon. I just can't stay until they figure it all out and find the money to pay me. It is a true conundrum. I think I have come up with a proposal that is mutually beneficial to them as well as myself. I want to walk away with no regrets and if I just jump ship and don't put them on a path to success, I will always regret that. Also, if I walk away and all the potential funding projects I have put together in the last few months with little to no assistance come in to being and I departed just before that happened, I will be kicking myself for some time to come and full of regret. So, I'm trying to do a win-win situational agreement with them. I know some of you feel it is me caving to their pressure and losing my resolve and I really don't see it that way. I see it as me finally doing what is in my best interest. I'm having my cake by walking away now....and eating it too by maintaining a working relationship that I can go back to on my terms and no one else's. If nothing changes at work, then I'm not out anything except the hope that they would turn things around. This is a very tough decision and I want to finally put me first and I see this as the best way to do that.

So now, the waiting game begins. We will see just how valuable I am to them I guess.....