Time

Ever wanted time to just stand still? Ever looked around and wondered where time went? Ever wanted to go back in time to change something you did or didn't do? As time has been screaming past the last few months, I've been thinking a lot about the passage of time. I see my kids growing up right before my eyes with each passing second, minute, hour, day. Each tick of the clock means one day closer to empty nest. I've wrapped up so much of myself in my children and the thought of them growing up and leaving the nest scares me. Who will I be when they are grown and on their own? As parents, we always want the best for them. We want them to experience things and have better opportunities than we did. So I'm conflicted. With that age old conflict that I'm sure all parents experience - not wanting them to leave home and wanting time to stand still and waiting with anticipation to see just how they will soar when they learn to fly on their own. I sit, I listen to the tick tick ticking of the clock, knowing each tick brings me one second closer to the moment my babies leave and I'm stuck answering that question I dread most....who am I without them?