Pissed off Angry at the World Today

Okay....bear with me while I vet the frustration of my day.

Have you ever noticed that it us usually the person who is doing the right things, following the rules, living their life by the best moral and ethical code they can and still they are the ones that life is often the hardest on?

Someone very special to me lost someone today that was very special to him and even though we are separated by a thousand miles I can feel ever bit of the pain in his heart today. This was someone who was an off duty police officer. We lose enough of the boys in blue without senseless accidents happening. My heart goes out to my special someone and the officer's family.

It frustrates me that we have criminals who catch every break out there....we have murderers sitting on death row for years and years and even get their sentences commuted and we - the law abiding tax papers - mom and pop mainstreet pay to keep these idiots alive. I guess sometimes it all just feels so pointless.

On a much smaller scale - I had my own crisis today. I have papillon puppies - Lola, Jenny and Brett. These guys have been a part of our family for 12 weeks now. From their first breath, we have been there. They slept in a box on my bed at night with their mom while they were babies with my hand resting firmly against their mom because we all know Layla is my baby girl. Well, even though I was a responsible pet owner and had my babies vaccinated while they waited for their forever homes, they were diagnosed with Parvovirus today and my family is devastated. My vet is great and I absolutely love the whole clinic. It is a family owned business and they are doing everything they can to save these little members of our family. I have been looking for forever homes for these guys - screening people and even have a contract that says if for some reason they can't keep them they will call and I will take them back. This really hit home and hurts. My animals are a very important part of my life - they are my four legged children and the thought of losing any of them just has me reeling.

We've spent almost 10 hours now bleaching every inch of the house and the vet called with an update tonight saying everyone is stable and showing some signs of improvement. But again, it goes back to how you can live your life right, be responsible and do the right thing and at times it just feels and seems so absolutely pointless.

C'est la vie....no good deed goes unpunished....why do bad things happen to good people....and to make my day absopositivlylutely perfect....my stalker had to text me and boy did I need a shower after that nasty gram!

So from a very tired Pandora....I bid the world goodnight and hope that tomorrow starts a day anew with positive vibes and fabulous outcomes.

And to my favorite grad student in the world - I love you and am so very proud of you my 1st daughter :)